Searchin For The Thrill of It

Can I just say that I graduated 4 years ago? This is probably one of the craziest things to me. I feel like it was just yesterday that I was at Foothill roaming the hallways. That school will always house some of my craziest, best memories. I remember leaving every day at lunch to go grab food with a group of friends, I remember sitting in my car eating lunch my junior year, being Mr. Ringler's 1st hour aide, taking advantage of the bathroom passes to go see guys, my group of friends, my parking spot. I remember it all. The thing I remember most from high school has got to be my group of friends. We were definitely wild ones. You know they say that however bad you were to your parents when you were younger is how your own kids will be to you. If that's the case I'm NEVER having any! The day I graduated from high school is a day that I will always remember very well. Alexis & I had decided that I'd drive us to the Orleans. Worst idea ever! I'm literally the worst at directions! Never trust me to get you somewhere! Well anyways we got lost! Thankfully we ran into a guy named Marcus that we knew & we followed him down there. After taking just a few pictures with friends Alexis & I went to join our friends. We finally began to walk out into the arena & I got to walk with one of my friends named Matt. Well as I sat down I looked up & saw my entire family waving at me from their box seats at the top of the arena. My mom had pulled a few strings through her work & got them to give up their box for that day. It was amazing to look up & see my baby cousins waving at me non stop. At that time I was dating the same guy & of course we got seated right across from each other. I was also surrounded by people that I had shared a homeroom with since the 6th grade. Graduation was one amazing day! Even though that graduation felt like it dragged on forever I loved every minute of it. I found out later that my family got to enjoy the whole thing on tv's & they got to sit in reclining seats. I'm still jealous. As soon as the whole thing was over I stepped outside & was hounded by family. After the 1,000 of pictures I took I grabbed Alexis & one of her other best friends Kayla & we left. Well as soon as we were leaving I saw a girl that was secretly dating the guy I was seeing at the time & her best friend had said something to me. Well back then like I always say I had the worst temper! So of course I turned around & let the girl have it. Thankfully I've calmed down a lot these past years. No one that has met me within the past year and a half can imagine me getting crazy with anyone. I don't let too much get to me the way it use to, but that side of me is still around, I just never show it. After my own graduation party that night at Johnny Mac's I ventured over to Alexis's house. That's something that I love about our families. We both come from huge families. My mom's side is Italian & my dad's side is Mexican. You get the picture. Alexis's party was awesome. At the end of the night Kyle, Alexis, & I passed out on the couch. That summer was probably one of the best summers of my life. Alexis & I have had our differences, but every memory I have in high school involve her. Whether it be our crazy videos or crying at 2 in the morning at the park over a guy. She has helped me through the hardest times of my life & still does to this day. Today as we were sitting at her apartment getting ready to go out we were laughing over a crazy day we had together back in 2009 right after we graduated. All I'm going to say is that it involved her hiding in my dad's truck at Lotus to her being squashed after a guy jumped through a window & landed on us. I'd love to share some more memories, but I think I'll hold them back. That's the best thing about memories, they never change. No matter how much things have changed since those days you will always have the memories. :) The day I graduated I had my Aunt Dollie say something to me that I shared with my friend Autumn tonight. Once you graduate high school life flies past you. I never believed it, but I truly do now. I can't believe how much has changed in these 4 years, but what's meant to be will be. You've got to live life as if there was no tomorrow. No regrets. Xoxo

Here are a few videos Alexis & I made back in high school. We literally spent all of our senior year in my room goofing around. Enjoy my little throwback <3 :)

http://s12.photobucket.com/user/sydneyness/media/003-4.mp4.html

http://s12.photobucket.com/user/sydneyness/media/bres%20visit/006-6.mp4.html

http://s12.photobucket.com/user/sydneyness/media/Alexis/Coronaandlime.mp4.html

http://s12.photobucket.com/user/sydneyness/media/Alexis/Crazy.mp4.html

 

& Alexis's baby brother Eric graduated

from Foothill last night. I remember

him as just a freshman & now he's grown

I'm so proud!

Love this lil tyke :) 

Now playing: This Is What Makes Us Girls- Lana Del Rey....reminds me of high school
& Diet Mountain Dew- Lana as well. Love her songs!

Loving Him Was Red

Lately I feel as if my life is one huge contradiction of things. I've noticed myself saying one thing & my actions doing the complete opposite of what I had just said. I've also noticed a lot of people around me doing the same thing. Actions speak louder than words is something that always pops into my mind. People always talk about how they don't want something, but yet they're the ones allowing it. Now I know I'm no one to comment on things like that because I am too very guilty of that, but there comes a point in your life when you finally realize that you've gotta put yourself first.  When you cushion someones mistakes they'll never learn & running away from your problems will leave you with the same problem, just in a different place. I've witnessed people lately hurt others & have no care in the world about it. It's crazy to think that people can do that, but it's true. So many people that have been involved in my life for numerous years are showing their true colors now & it's sad to say, but it's life. People will let you down no matter how much love & faith you put into them. When you become close with people you give them the opportunity to hurt you & unfortunately most of them will. Not everyone is as horrible though. Throughout my 21 years I've met so many amazing people & I'm still good friends with the people I hung around when I was 4. Last week I got the opportunity to see my friend Kim who was one of my best friends in high school. I hadn't seen her in at least 4 years & I felt as if I just went back in time with her. We were always hanging out & doing crazy things back in the day. It was so much fun to remember all of those old days, but I realized the second that I was leaving that I have changed so much & lately I've sort of forgotten about that. Also this past week I got the amazing opportunity to go see TAYLOR SWIFT aka my soul sister. I'm the person that loves a song based on the lyrics of the song & that's a huge reason of why I'm a huge Taylor fan. Corey called me back in December as soon as I was getting off of my plane from Reno & he told me that his brother had bought him tickets & that he wanted me to go! I couldn't have been happier :) So Tuesday we drove up to Phoenix Arizona & we got to see her perform! It was amazing! I wish she'd come to Las Vegas! Although she didn't play my favorite song off of Red, Sad Beautiful Tragic, but she did play Love Story. That is definitely one of my top 5 favorites. Thank you to Corey for that amazing opportunity! This summer I have so many amazing plans & opportunities & I can't wait to do them all! My city is yet again back to being free. It's time to tear this baby up! Yesterday after Josh's amazing funeral I had another great opportunity to hangout with 2 old friends, Jeff & Luke until 2 this morning. I hadn't spent time with these two in forever & I'm so glad that I did. Both of them are amazing guys! We did a lot of fun things yesterday & I also got to spend time talking with Josh's parents. I love talking to Josh's mom. She's one of the sweetest women plus I found out yesterday that she dated one of my uncles, but in this town who hasn't dated someone from my family? I loved every minute of yesterday. Josh's funeral wasn't the end for him, it was a celebration of his life. Plus I beat Luke & Jeff at poker. Started with 2 dollars & left with 20. Not bad for someone who doesn't know how to play roulette or poker.

 

                                                Listening to: Our Song- Matchbox 20