Loving Him Was Red

Lately I feel as if my life is one huge contradiction of things. I've noticed myself saying one thing & my actions doing the complete opposite of what I had just said. I've also noticed a lot of people around me doing the same thing. Actions speak louder than words is something that always pops into my mind. People always talk about how they don't want something, but yet they're the ones allowing it. Now I know I'm no one to comment on things like that because I am too very guilty of that, but there comes a point in your life when you finally realize that you've gotta put yourself first.  When you cushion someones mistakes they'll never learn & running away from your problems will leave you with the same problem, just in a different place. I've witnessed people lately hurt others & have no care in the world about it. It's crazy to think that people can do that, but it's true. So many people that have been involved in my life for numerous years are showing their true colors now & it's sad to say, but it's life. People will let you down no matter how much love & faith you put into them. When you become close with people you give them the opportunity to hurt you & unfortunately most of them will. Not everyone is as horrible though. Throughout my 21 years I've met so many amazing people & I'm still good friends with the people I hung around when I was 4. Last week I got the opportunity to see my friend Kim who was one of my best friends in high school. I hadn't seen her in at least 4 years & I felt as if I just went back in time with her. We were always hanging out & doing crazy things back in the day. It was so much fun to remember all of those old days, but I realized the second that I was leaving that I have changed so much & lately I've sort of forgotten about that. Also this past week I got the amazing opportunity to go see TAYLOR SWIFT aka my soul sister. I'm the person that loves a song based on the lyrics of the song & that's a huge reason of why I'm a huge Taylor fan. Corey called me back in December as soon as I was getting off of my plane from Reno & he told me that his brother had bought him tickets & that he wanted me to go! I couldn't have been happier :) So Tuesday we drove up to Phoenix Arizona & we got to see her perform! It was amazing! I wish she'd come to Las Vegas! Although she didn't play my favorite song off of Red, Sad Beautiful Tragic, but she did play Love Story. That is definitely one of my top 5 favorites. Thank you to Corey for that amazing opportunity! This summer I have so many amazing plans & opportunities & I can't wait to do them all! My city is yet again back to being free. It's time to tear this baby up! Yesterday after Josh's amazing funeral I had another great opportunity to hangout with 2 old friends, Jeff & Luke until 2 this morning. I hadn't spent time with these two in forever & I'm so glad that I did. Both of them are amazing guys! We did a lot of fun things yesterday & I also got to spend time talking with Josh's parents. I love talking to Josh's mom. She's one of the sweetest women plus I found out yesterday that she dated one of my uncles, but in this town who hasn't dated someone from my family? I loved every minute of yesterday. Josh's funeral wasn't the end for him, it was a celebration of his life. Plus I beat Luke & Jeff at poker. Started with 2 dollars & left with 20. Not bad for someone who doesn't know how to play roulette or poker.

 

                                                Listening to: Our Song- Matchbox 20